16 June 2011

I kept having flashbacks recently, to those old days when I'm still a kid.

The day my dad brought me, and only me, to dine at Pizza Hut without my mum knowing, and I was damn happy.
The day my mum bought me a watch that cost over 50 bucks but I never really treasure.
The day I dislocated my elbow and cried non-stop, and my neighbor tried to comfort me by giving me sweets.
The day I fainted and woke up in my dad's arm when he rushed me to the hospital.
The day I was being bullied and wronged.
The day I got scolded for trying to help.
The days I started to distant myself..

Once upon a time, I felt loved, but I dint really cherish them. I thought it's the most natural feeling on earth.
Now when I looked back, I wonder what the hell had happened that caused these changes, and I hate myself for being stupid.
I must be very disappointing.

Only if we can rewind life, I'll make sure that it won't go this awful way. At least, I won't feel so alone.

Left`alone
6/16/2011 12:19:00 AM™

14 June 2011

IF, I am going away and not gonna return anymore, what will you say to me?
Not gone as in gone dead but gone as in literally, gone.

I'm feeling very contradicted.

Left`alone
6/14/2011 11:53:00 PM™

13 June 2011

I'm still awake, with a heavy mind.
There's too many things weighing it down.
Guess it's acting up again, the f. up depressing side.

Nobody stays with you forever and there's no such thing as friends forever.
Who the hell out there consider himself/herself to be a friend of mine?
At the end of the day, you're still alone, listening to your own troubles, trying to cajole yourself out of some stupid emotions.
It's a crowded world, congested mind, but a deserted atmosphere.

Retreat.

Defeated.

Gone.

Left`alone
6/13/2011 12:20:00 AM™

07 June 2011

Left`alone
6/07/2011 08:53:00 PM™

06 June 2011

Left`alone
6/06/2011 08:28:00 PM™